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  Finally finding my way out...

  by cognac in

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  well, its been about 2 1/2 years and have slowly done less and less.

  i've been to about 30 minutes of a meeting in the last month and a half where i stayed out back and with my daughter.. i've been looking for the right timing to leave but had decided i will go anyways by the time my daughter is about 1 years old.

  but, it just so happens that my some members of my family including and mostly my parents have actually given me a good enough of an excuse to get out.. they have broken to many rules.

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  http://www.smbc-comics.com/index.php?db=comics&id=711#comic

  hehe

  congrats cognac. remember who you are and where you are headed. :) deep breaths of freedooommmm!
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  What good comes from joining a community like this for support/therapy?

  by dances with smurfs in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  okay so if anyone can give some imput on this, i would really appreciate hearing different opinions!.

  (its downright impossible to make decisions, big or small, these days....sigh).

  ive been thinking alot about the possible consequences and outcome of joining in on a community like this and using it as a form of therapy or a support group type setting when struggling over the witnesses.

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  so only positivity so far! well thats good :)
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  What good comes from joining a community like this for support/therapy?

  by dances with smurfs in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  okay so if anyone can give some imput on this, i would really appreciate hearing different opinions!.

  (its downright impossible to make decisions, big or small, these days....sigh).

  ive been thinking alot about the possible consequences and outcome of joining in on a community like this and using it as a form of therapy or a support group type setting when struggling over the witnesses.

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  Okay so if anyone can give some imput on this, I would really appreciate hearing different opinions!
  (its downright impossible to make decisions, big or small, these days....sigh)

  Ive been thinking alot about the possible consequences and outcome of joining in on a community like this and using it as a form of therapy or a support group type setting when struggling over the witnesses. Making friends, hearing experiences different and simular to yours and just feeling open and free in your own brian seems therapeutic enough. But are there any drawbacks? Things I should be careful of? Im already paranoid about being found out...which almost makes it not worth it...i think?
  
  I dont want to become obsessed or caught up for too long in this process because I really just want to live my life. Im still young, but even still I feel that SO much time has been wasted! SO much!! College, REAL friends, lifelong relationships, experience!! Im anxious out of my mind over it most of the time. Other times my meditation, deep breathing, yoga and herbal yummies keep me in a balanced and realistic place.
  I just want to therapize myself and move on you know? I understand that it will take time and that this is going to be uncomfortable in lots of ways...and I really dont think im in denial when I say that this should be easier than it seems if I have the right attitude and intention and goals.
  eh...im babbling about craziness.

  But you get my drift, eh? Thanks for any thoughts and opinions! Its desperately needed and appreciated!

  smurf
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  Question about an old book??

  by dances with smurfs in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  someones thread made me remember something (kind of) interesting!.

  i once saw an old book when i was sitting in the back school for a meeting.

  i cant remember what color it was but it was pre or near 1950s maybe?.

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  Someones thread made me remember something (kind of) interesting!

  I once saw an old book when i was sitting in the back school for a meeting. I cant remember what color it was but it was pre or near 1950s maybe?

  Anyway, one of the pictures in the front was of the 10 horned beast... and what caught my attention was that one of the heads was a unicorn?? I remember thinking that was so strange...maybe someone in here can remember what it is?
  I flipped through the thing for a few minutes and read some crazy things like motor vehicles and trains were prophecied in the bible. Im sorry thats all I remember about it, but I just thought I'd ask if anyone knows what that book might be??
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  Atheists Against Abortion?

  by AK - Jeff in

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  http://objectivewriting.blogspot.com/2007/09/atheist-stand-against-abortion.html.

  thoughts that somewhat parallel mine on this subject.

  rational thought and rejection of creationism might not automatically place one in a particular stance on every issue, and may result in somewhat odd positions, compared to the stereotypical ones.

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  My 'worldview' has been a roller coaster for me. I keep coming across 'issues' that demand my attention internally. I seek to avoid falling into a label as far as my opinions go. Part of the process is seeing how others have reasoned on these subjects.

  Peace/Namaste

  Jeff

  ditto... its so hard dealing with the tidal wave of issues i had always ignored or just denied...or took on others opinions as my own. sometimes overwhelming. sometimes fun and interesting to learn how i really feel about such big topics. the best thing for me has been listening to people debate their sides.

  im not sure that i would consider myself athiest. but either way... im pro-choice all the way. how could it be any other way? a womans body and what happens to it is in that womans hands. despite any of my opinions and thoughts on birth control, i really dont feel right judging such a sensitive and personal situation and i would hate to be judged if i were to ever be faced with that decision myself. im not pro-abortion. but in an over populated world with lots and lots of unwanted pregnancies happening every day, i dont feel anyone should feel riddled with guilt over morality issues if they choose to terminate.
  
  imho

  smurf
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  this lurker's first post.

  by dances with smurfs in

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  :|.

  ...........im gonna go have an anxiety attack now.

  lol.

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  no, no... not a 30 year old male. im a 20 something lady =) but thats great! rekindling is always a good thing.
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  this lurker's first post.

  by dances with smurfs in

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  :|.

  ...........im gonna go have an anxiety attack now.

  lol.

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  So Im thinking about the last meeting I went to, which was the memorial of this year. And before that it was a thursday night CO visit in a friends congregation November of 09. Before that I was pretty regular.

  Eh.... this isnt as much of a fade as a cold turkey. Funny thing is...absolutely no ones noticed!
  I really dont know what to do with myself now. Im thinking college.... ?

  Thankfully I just moved to a bigger city kinda far from most friends and family.
  Im thinking everybody thinks im in another hall. And now that I think of it....I have NO idea where my publisher card is.

  SHRUG! :D

  ...i am a little anxious to know who of my friends and family will still reach out and be friendly and close after it becomes clear where I stand in all of this. and i wondeerrrr.....if i know any of YOU people!
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  this lurker's first post.

  by dances with smurfs in

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  :|.

  ...........im gonna go have an anxiety attack now.

  lol.

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  Well howdy-do everybody :D I wasnt expecting such a big welcome.
  I appreciate it! Especially the smurf dance video and all the compliments. I loled. hehe
  What a breath of fresh air. Geez.

  Where can I even begin!?? What exactly is it that you would like to know?

  3rd generation born in. Baptised as a young teen when my dad told me it was "time". Oye.
  I really was and still am sincere in my spirituality, but I just cant lie to myself about it anymore.
  In my opinion, there is no truth about god or spirit realms that anyone can know or prove at this point in time
  so why cant we all just accept that and live our lives? Why try to force it? Why so serious and
  judgemental and nosey and harsh? Thats all I'm screamin over here.
  Things quit making sense or never did, really... I always hated hated hated meetings, service and studying.
  The people were for the most part sincere and nice...except for the handful of judicial commitee brothers
  who were just weird, perverse and incredibly callous. I will never again sit behind closed doors and tell
  some creepy men what goes on in my private life. Ive never in my life been called the names and treated the way
  I was treated in a judicial meeting!!!! Gross. Eh....

  Well... I really dont want to give away too many details. Paranoia.

  I had always had my doubts that I tucked away neatly somewhere but it wasnt until very recently that
  I just quit CARING! The mental/emotionally struggle was waayy too exhausting to keep ignoring my instincts.
  I still struggle with everything of course. I dont want to be labeled apostate and shunned
  forever by all the people Ive ever known and love. I also dont want to strip my family of
  respect and keep lying to them. Its a tricky situation. Im either an apostate or a liar.
  Makes me feel infinitely sad about everytime I used the word apostate in a negative and hateful way. We're just people, yall.

  Well, thankfully Im in a very good situation to fade easily and painlessly. So heres hoping that actually happens. :)
  
  Thanks for the open arms...
  
  So much love,

  smurf
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  this lurker's first post.

  by dances with smurfs in

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  :|.

  ...........im gonna go have an anxiety attack now.

  lol.

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  :|

  ...........Im gonna go have an anxiety attack now. lol